I just got some free time after 2andhalf hours of piano.
1. You are really amazing do you know that. I find it amazing that you can keep up with this. This positive attitude towards everything, saying 'it's fine' when sometimes, it really isnt. Looking at you make me realise that what's on the inside matters a lot more than what people see on the outside. You also let me understand the real meaning of friendship, that it's not just about saying cute things to one another. It's also how you treat them and how much you're willing to do for them.
2. Wow. I find it scary how much I discovered of the hidden you. The one that's hidden from everyone else, from everyone that don't know you enough. But after all this time, I real truth slowly starts to seep out. There's a lot of bad things about you, but as long as you don't show it, you could be fine.
3. I admire you a lot, but I don't think you realise that. I admire the fact that you're able to be yourself even under pressure, that you're able to concentrate and work hard even with distractions.I admire how pure you are and how happy you always are. I really want to get closer to you, but I don't think you think much of me. When you talk to me or smile at me, it doesn't seem like you do it out of friendship. It seems like you do it out of kindness or pitiness. Maybe you should start getting to know me better, or maybe.... I'm just not good enough for you.
4. You seem really interesting and perfect. But your attitude towards me is always hot and cold. Sometimes it seems like you really like me and you treat me so well. But sometimes? It just seems like I don't exist. You're really social and you know so many people compared to me. I know it's hard for you to think of me when you have so much more other people to think about, but I really don't like it when you start being distant all of a sudden.
5. I really admire you as well. Maybe even more than 3. But sometimes there's parts of you that don't really seem that real, like parts of a jigsaw puzzle that don't really fit. I'm not saying that I don't believe what you're telling me. It's just that it seems too perfect, too unreal. I'm sorry if I seem really boring compared to you, or if I don't seem fun enough when you talk to me. It's just that sometimes, I feel intimidated next to you. Maybe just like 3, I'm not good enough for you.
6. Our friendship is very neutral. We're not close at all, but you're so nice you make it seem as if we have always been the best of friends. You always laugh at the 'jokes' that I make, either truthfully or out of kindness, I don't know. But all I know is that, it makes me feel included and it makes me feel like I at least belong somehow. I don't know how you do this, but you're so nice to everyone, it makes me feel ashamed that I don't do enough for my friends compared to you.
7. You're not a bad person but you just don't know how to say the right things, or say it in a right way I guess. You often offend me, or even annoy me at some stages but I know that you're actually a nice person deep inside. You just need to know how to show everyone that person instead of the one that you're currently pretending to be. I haven't been able to get close to you, but if you keep this up, I'm not really sure if I want to.
8. Even though we've never really been close or have a heart-to-heart talk of some sort, I feel as if I already know you and that I'm already really close to you. I guess that's how you make everyone else feel, maybe that's why you're so popular and loved by everyone. I really love your boldness and the way you.....express yourself? It's as if you have no need to be ashamed yourself, which you don't anyways because you're so pretty and at the same time, kind and fun-loving.
9. You're so pretty and just like 8, you're really kind and nice to everyone. I always feel such a sad person standing beside you. You're always so bubbly and happy and energetic.I don't know how you do this. You make everything seem fine as if the world is a happy place. I feel young and carefree next to you, like somehow all my worries are no longer there and all I need to do is laugh and nothing will go wrong.
10. Way back last year, even though I really liked you, I used to think we couldnt at all communicate. Then we started getting a bit closer and I started to know you and like you more. But now there's something really different and I can see a really distinctive change in you. Don't get me wrong, because I still like you. But I can see you starting to make a mistake I've made before. I don't want to see you go down the wrong way because I really want you to be the best (lol i sound like a mum). So I really hope you stop right now, because you're awesome just the way you are.
11. I don't really get you because you always seem so distant. Maybe it's not like that to everyone, maybe it's just to me? Is it because I don't communicate with you enough? Or is it because you find me boring and that there's no point talking to me or being close to me? There was a once-upon-a-time that we were close and we would laugh and hang on to each other while walking. But is that forgotten forever? I hope not, because I can still remember it even though you might not.
12. You are one fo those people that are nice to people you know well and nice to those that you don't. Just like 8 and 9, you're really pretty and popular and everyone just seems to like you naturally. I really admire for for this and the fact that you're able to put your friends before you and do things for them that I might not be able to do so myself.
13. You are one of those people that really brighten up my day. I guess maybe not to the point where I'll smile when I think of you but enough so that I will laugh genuinely when I'm with you. There's those times where you have to fake a laugh just because you have to, and there's times where that laugh just comes out. I guess the only problem with you is that you don't really consider other people around you. And maybe the reason why you like hanging out with me is because I seem 'new and interesting' to you. I'm have a feeling that if I stay with you more, you'll start treating me like dirt. So maybe, I'll still keep my distance so we'll be able to keep on laughing with each other.
14. I don't have any kind of happy memories with you, but I guess right now, it's fine with me because we laugh and smile and hug each other. Maybe it's the best way? I don't really know. I guess maybe you think I'm just neutral with everyone or maybe you are. I don't really know what to say to excpt random things that I think of. I really want to have a good time with you so that next time we talk, I can go: Remember that time when we.....
15. We have gotten so much closer these years. Two years ago, I could have sworn you thought I was too stupid or too lame to talk to. Maybe your view towards me have changed? I really hope so, because you're such a nice person (im srs. even my mum thinks so.lol :D) I think that my friendship with you is one of the most successful yet, because two years ago, I couldn't say anything to you, but now, I can think up of so many 'Remember when we...'s.
omg. this took me so long. i even finished a maths paper while doing this.
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